Author: FEMALE HIGH PRIEST MELCHIZEDEK-ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.Ruth A Sutton-1955

We had in common that neither of us were taught to walk properly during our formative years at school and at home. Both of us have feet that are not without ‘issues’ physically problematic. We were not taught as we should have been, formally, gently, what muscle groups to use while walking. I was taught how to, “Sit Up Straight! Because slouching can lead to deformed spine” yup, no one, not even me, knew I already had spine differences, never mind Fibro’….but I do mind actually….those muscles and bones, that Fibro’ they were brewing from neglect, waiting for the days they could strike out, they didn’t care to forgive that neglect.

Not anything about muscle groups was ‘taught’ to either of us. Physiotherapists during my life, gave me clues about my ‘unwell’ spine and it’s supportive muscles. I thought, how magically the whole muscle groups supported the spine. Not. I just believed the body got on with it, I let it and managed my best not to let them prevent me working for my comfy shoes and other comfy’s, to accommodate self management of my self’s health needs . those health differences brewed & boiled and spat out their vile sprites to cause havoc in my physicals, no matter what. I had no idea about focussed healthy for muscles and bones when I was very young, walking though. No one said, “when walking, use your bum cheeks that’ll help support your knees. I had knock knees on skinny legs . whoever the school teachers were that were told to teach me or my pal about walking most healthily to energise our muscles to fit and support our bones…they did not. No one taught me how to place my foot down straight or soft, so the heel wouldn’t send jarring pains up my leg. I had to find ways to find comfy shoes. Not fashion ones, comfy ones that I like to wear. Hobnail, steel toe cap boots in burgundy red, with soft soft softly supportive, in gentle ways, innards would be my choice. Haven’t even looked for those on line or locally lately. Last time I looked, the price of them was enormous. So, I get other shoes and boots.

Sure I got my balance, don’t we all manage to do that? One way or another. I wasn’t taught my proper posture, to fit my bones, which were not straight . not so wonky I couldn’t focus hard, while still able, on doing a proper for my posture walk. But I didn’t know how to do that. I didn’t know it was possible. Mind . no one knew about my or any others’ Fibromyalgia then, not even me. I kept quiet about the pains and even competed at sports. Rode horses. Ran, loved running, wind or wind and rain, in my face. Jumping from as high as possible. I knew about landing in a roll because of films I watched. Still . that was a pillock because fibro’ sprite in the feet etc. . I Walked a lot. All because I loved all that and I found my physical balance every time. Lost it a lot too. Only fell off a horse once, the other imbalances I managed to not lose it completely on most occasions in company. I do have a fear of falling, because my back gives way without notice and I drop or wobble way to suddenly. Those times are hard but, when younger I got up. Now I mustn’t fall because I can’t get up without aids. . Mostly, while walking, I managed, thanks to my ability to stride out with focus no matter what, that before I was injured at work while just 4o years old. Helpful are walls and trees. Or other furniture. I could walk into a room and memorise where every piece of furniture was, what had ‘loved delicates’ placed carefully and dusted to a shine, that could smash if I leaned or fell on it. To avoid those bits of furniture was my aim. My comfort blanket. That while knowing where to be able to get a bit of help balancing, or a supportively comfy place to be. Not always possible when people don’t care about your needs but are otherwise very enjoyable to be with. I’d do so in seconds, in order to enjoy the company. I loved doing those other activities, with all my heart. Stopped horse riding when I realised I could not do it without risking huge repercussions. Still would love to be with them. They’re fun. Really fun. I think that time is over now. Unless a miracle. Stopped driving when I knew the fibro’-fog sprites could attack at any time without notice, particularly the concern of, it’s all, combined, got so much worse with attacks that are, ‘that’s impossible to manage’ ones, including, the dratted fibro-fog sprites. I do get moments, during the days, when I am able to get out and about in my wheelchair very briefly, painful to be at a standstill even in my wheelchair but . Wind on my face, managing to ‘be me’ over the top of those extremely LOUD physical and mental health sprites not of my origins, striding out, moments in my wheelchair. Made more enjoyable by Lizzie dog.

Only recently finding my mind balance. Just got my letter through from the local ‘traumas therapy team’ that’ll be fun…maybe, maybe not. I have a lot of questions, I do hope I’m given time and fair ear. Everyone I encountered had shed loads of baggage. Many still do truth be told. So I kept quiet about all the details of most of my daily physical and mental struggles. I gave out the diagnosis labels naming some of the conditions but not all of them. People very close to my heart still don’t even know. Well, they will now but maybe not . they might not read this.

I believe children must, at least, be taught, the muscle supports bone things. And, not just told about them like on a shopping list of things to learn, among other things they’re supposed to keep in or, exercise their memory banks away from their own life, for what? No. Teach them all, exclude none, teach well what muscles can they exercise to maintain their selves in whatever limited or not, state they find themselves born in. All children need the space from stress to learn what they, with whatever body they must manage well, are capable of, before it’s too late for them to enjoy their full capacity for their best, muscles & bones maintained, self’s.

I wish I’d been taught as an individual with Fibro and, slight turned major, spine bones disorder . knock knees too . and other ill health stuff . yes, I wish I’d been taught gently, properly, definitively not sternly, how to use every muscle group, for the advantages of every bone I had, before going into ‘big’ school. Yes.

Oh . are they being taught that properly in early years now?

Good. That’s not-wrong.

R.A.S.2020

This is not an easy identity. It’s usually denied by others, misunderstood, ignored, mocked, adamantly denied, very rarely, encouraged or respected. Many have blatantly ignored this part of me. I was born in the middle of the 1950’s, in the middle of a family of five children. As a young child I was harmfully ‘schooled’ to contribute to man & boy’s desire to do sex with me. It was not until I reached my 60’s that I found respect in myself for my true self and sparse respect of it from others and now I have so much peace communicating it. Much to the angst of those who had other ideas about and for me. Many of those ideas due to my own lack of ability to communicate me assertively.

PTSD+Fibromyalgia+other physically debilitating and conflicting illnesses did not help me at all, in fact they hindered me. My own ‘sex’ schooling had been successful. It began with a traumatic event in my infancy, covered up by those responsible for the wrong doers. I had no chance. Because I was so young when it happened they all believed I’d forget it. It kept haunting me, in so many ways. Still does. My brain automatically blocked it then for a few years. Forcing me to ‘pretend’ even more. I did manage to seek out some real interests and I had some real happy moments, usually with siblings or, horses and forests beaches and other natural wonders. There were many horrid distractions though.

It felt like I was observing my own life but nothing in it was happening to the real, asexual, me. Surely it couldn’t be? Because the love I felt for the natural wonders of the world and all people was part of the true, the real…wasn’t it?

In the 1960’s the sexual revolution arrived, where all were supposed to shut up and put out and love sex without attachments, a man thing that many sex loving women accommodated. Absentee paternal parents began to rise in number. But, only women and many of the children were shamed for the ideal of man. Still now, when absentee paternal parents are accepted without argument, there’s little shame about that felt by men. Women and their children are burdened with misplaced ‘shaming’ though. Why is that even allowed to be an accepted concept? A baby has been conceived, a new life, a child has been grown and hopefully will develop to an adult. Stop with that shaming of women and children bollocks. Begin a new path of shaming equally, the man. Better still no shame, even better no paternal absenteeism. Let’s see more purposeful parenting of a loving and supportive nature it will improve the lives of children and adults no end.

Myself having been sexually ‘used’ and abused kept quiet about my lack of desire for sex. I was caught up in the wilful desire of others to do it with me or with whomever else they wanted to ‘match’ me with. Ignoring or snorting in disbelief if I even mentioned I wasn’t interested or utilised the word ‘no’. I had no notion of my rights…many desiring to use me ignored them too. That I could say no loudly, fight them off, or say no quietly and be respected, was not known to me. I was already beaten into submission. I was on automatic response, with a ‘let’s get this over with and remain alive and unbeaten’ mind-set. It was a living nightmare for me which I managed quite successfully to hide. I wanted none to know they were hurting me. Why was that? Fibromyalgia made it physically painful too.

The real me kept shrinking. I’d given up on being accepted for who I truly was/am. The freedoms and rights of other individuals to desire to do sex to me, was imposed on me, a mind-set made for me, used by me in ignorance and that, at the expense of my own self. In fact I lost decades, hiding in that protective outer shell. Described as something I wasn’t by others. It was like being in a very long universal and local theatrical production, made ultra dramatic by other cast members. All of us ad-libbing. This madness added to by hormone experiments I was used in, done to NHS patients without true and full disclosure, all to benefit private patients. Mostly benefitting wealthy men who cannot accept that their women are made impotent by menopause or something similar. Sickening actually.

I was given an injury from an assault at work when aged forty years plus seven months, (January 1996) which rendered me in even more pain and unable to work for the rest of my life. I was initially traumatised for months, then I slipped into shock, a typical state at that time for me to live in. I then moved into the long process, unsupported by any, of management of the grief of not being able to work, or socialise. I was no longer involved in the sex part of the theatrical play. That was the grace part of the horror of the physical assault, the injury and not being able to work. Added to by the denial of it’s serious impact from those protecting the assault giver.

Ringing bells now and it triggered memories and anxiety attacks stemming from incidents of beatings and the imposition of desired sex of others, imposed on me in my infancy added to by other sex ‘incidents’ when I was a child and as an adult and .. the beatings .. traumas that happened during my life, mainly, causing similar ‘hush up jobs’ to the initial childhood traumas. How cross every one of influence was that I…yes me, not those who caused me harm, even mentioned it let alone reacted to the horrors of it all. Apparently if I mentioned it or showed my true reaction I, not the attackers, brought shame to others and … myself. Misplaced shame belonging to the attackers. I’ve now mostly shaken that, misplaced on me, shame off, thanks to today’s knowledge and experiences in society, about victims rights and voices. It was bad enough that I had to ‘pretend’ I wasn’t disabled, because from childhood my disabilities were not visible, except when everything Fibro’ flared up. No one understood Fibromyalgia even at least as little as they do today. My reading difficulty, likened to and now even spoken of as dyslexia. Mixed with a Fibro’ fog the extra reading lessons I had as a young person, to give me ‘tips’ about managing that part of my life and hide the mis-labelled ‘shame’ of it, go out the window. Now 65, when I’m brave enough, I let people know about my reading an understanding language difficulties and they help without shaming me👍

That final injury at work, gave me much needed ‘alone’ time alongside such debilitating physical hip and spine agony that I was muddled in the head trying to ‘manage’ it without help on a daily basis, and still found some interest, happiness or distraction but it was very loud pain. Reduced only in later years by reclining and medication. Even with support and medication when I move or sit stationary in my wheelchair for any length of time loud, TOO LOUD PAIN screams in my body and brain. I am angry that the attacker forced me to claim benefits and be in need of much more medication and medical consultations, expensive scans and such at cost to the tax payers not him or his family. The ‘organisation’ of his protection racket reached far and wide, I was refused industrial injury benefit as well as being insulted by their indifference to my self worth. Often I’m seen as a ‘drain’ on society whereas before the injury I was working, all be it for low wage, paying my wack and would by now, have completed training programs enabling me to work on well beyond normal retirement age, earning more than a catering assistants wage and paying more tax and NI into my country’s public fund pool. I was planning the courses necessary to train catering assistants. This with supportive reaction from the bosses. Head chef was my brother but like he said when I first approached him for work, “I can get you the interview but not the job. You have to earn that.” The training job, once qualified, would have suited the Fibromyalgia aspect of my physical illnesses beautifully but, it didn’t happen thanks to a privileged, overly pampered, 14 year old public school boy thug. Who got off Scott free at tax payers cost! Yep, still finding anger about those insults adding to the injury and illnesses. Shameful behaviour from him and all protecting him, shameful.

Very recently, last year to be precise, women began helping me, not men, women without a male mind-set. The help they give is most welcome. I am made aware that there are some helpful men mindfully respectful of the existence of asexuals in this world but I’ve yet to encounter them in person or see them in public.

The time I had alone, isolated if you will, I used to purposefully shed the victimised, misunderstood character I’d been expected to be for the theatrical plays of man and woman. Now aged 65, I am completely at mind-set peace. In pain, managing that to the best of my ability with medical assistance as and when. Now I’m mostly content with who I am. I am finding my voice and putting all the fragmented pieces together. Yes I have much of the needed help and support. I have suffered through many misunderstandings and denials of my illnesses to get that help. Yes I believe I still have quite a lot to contribute to my locality and further afield in society. Skills gained along the journey, in the play, useful to myself and perhaps to others. I now choose whether to socially encounter people. But due to my physical illnesses which not only limit how long I can sit in stationary position before pains begin their loud, undeniable screams but also have degenerated, so I choose virtual socialising when able.

I have an incredible little dog. She’s a cross mix breed with dachshund and springer strengths and weaknesses because of the unusual mix. Often mistaken for jack russell but not. She encourages me to get out and endure pain for a park visit. Luckily for me the distractions from the loud noise of pain are plentiful within time limits. I’ve managed nearly two hours on more than one occasion. She loves mixing with other dogs and, is getting used to humans, in fact enjoying the brief company of quite a few now. We are very lucky in this area to encounter a lot of friendly people, both genders, briefly though with no funny business involved. Very lucky, so far. Wheelchair condition allowing…that’s another one to tell…maybe. My relationship with her blossoms. She’s a traumatised rescue so we have a lot in common.

I have to encounter people in support networks of both genders. I do my best to dismiss any theatrical dramas and get to the truth of matters quickly. Fibro’ fog and other pain screaming in my body and brain. Not from my mouth, (schooled young about screaming in pain) doesn’t always help me, in fact confounds and perplexes medics.

I’m finding folks of all ages who’re not in the play either, they’re easier to communicate my truth with, than those who insist on being part of the global theatrical games. Those who insist on the play, rapidly discover that I’m no longer part of it. My asexual truth is now ‘out of the closet’ as they say. My ability to be assertive to any, is improving but needs help and work. I still have concerns that I’ll be physically beaten, those come and go in the form of panic/anxiety attacks, usually after disclosing the real me. I am on a waiting list for trauma therapy. Only been waiting 40 years to get on a waiting list so, it’s a busy field folks. Very busy, do not expect the UK health services to be otherwise, too many jump the queues using their pretences. Shame on them all, especially those enabling them.

I look forward to the day others feel able to step off the global stages and help with the task of clearing up the catastrophic, harmful situations ‘players’ keep adding to or, are creating…Yes I do. It can and it does happen.

I see the children born off stage and crying out loud for the damaging play to stop. I am in awe of them, I was a little jealous at first that they are free of the stage from birth. Only a little jealous, it was brief as I clearly see that they have their own mammoth plights. I aim to help them whenever I see the opportunity to do so, having stepped off, well…been shoved off that global stage straight into the turmoil it created. I contributed to parts of it myself, even though I was unaware there even was one, born into the play and prevented from leaving it for a long time. Now my real life and works begin, still young enough to enjoy my new found freedoms…yus.

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Any, while reading this piece, who assume or conclude, from their own thoughts, that I don’t like men, would be wrong. I just don’t like and cannot love, how mad-bull loud they are about their desire for sex. I also absolutely detest any man’s or woman’s desire to kill other people. How casually indifferent, often cruelly argumentative, they seem to be when called up about those two unlovable to me, desires.

I do love people of all gender identities. Absolutely yes. All can be caring, creative, funny, hilarious even, interesting, kind, supportive…oh the list goes on into all sorts of lovable. Yet not all choose to make loud those lovable aspects of themselves. I’ve seen those aspects in every single person I personally encountered. Yes every one. Whether they were abusive, cruel, forceful, loud &/or indifferent to me or not.

Instead the loudest choices of indifferent, unlovable sex and killing, are obvious. Sex and killing the main desires, apparently expected of all people in the world, whether they honestly desire them or not. This proven to me personally by direct & indirect experiences and observations, added to by population overloads. I observe that there exist a great many feeling unwanted by others, who, just as others, were born via sex, directly into loud and public preparations of “desire to do sex &/or killing”. This added to encouragement by public titillation, and the sorrowfulness of loved man, when he or woman he’s used to, perhaps even loves, experience impotence.

I don’t love or desire killings either, both individual and genocidal. Those desires, sex and killing are not in the least bit lovable to me or desired by me. My body and mind, react unfavourably for my liking, in those situations, when seeing them too.

I’d prefer to see the lovable parts of people, not have hinted or blatant desires about and for my sex parts. We all have them, it’s true. That isn’t anyone’s right to assume or say that we all desire, must desire, attention to them. Expectations today are so loud, even little children are exposed and consequently expected to desire it and prepare themselves for others who desire it. That is wrong. I respectfully request peace for all, including me, about those two highly emotive desires which actually are subjects that do matter and contribute to the global crises.

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R.A.S. 2020

Apart from making money for those employed to take part in or preside over law-court debates, who benefits from reducing human rights? This being done or planned in UK as I write, in changes to Parliamentary Acts of law. The human rights already lawfully established are not lawfully acted upon, recognised or applied by all Parliamentarians. Not even recognised, accepted or known about by all citizens. In fact of late we see much argument and aggression opposing support of several human rights. That is unacceptable. Why are the rights of humans, adversely affected by the ‘desires’ of other humans, put into any debate? Surely it is better to establish and keep the needs of every human, recognised, accepted, understood and known. The need to have energy, food, water and living accommodation for all, has been too long ignored in favour of a few who desire to live avariciously, in opulent and truly unrealistic luxurious lifestyle, to which they’ve been made accustomed but, do not need. Their needs are definitely questionable when comparing to the needs of a hungry, homeless thirsty child or adult, in a place made desolate in favour of the obscenely ignorant desires of those choosing avaricious, opulent luxury and unfair, unrealistic advantages. I see nowadays, only loud Parliamentarians who keep insisting on changing laws to suit their own, harmful ideals or lifestyles and that of their families and fellows. Elbowing or indifferent to, non-Parliamentarians and opposing Parliamentarians alike. Placing them into defenceless, harmed situations that they did not vote for or agree to. Deviousness, hiding in complex wording that only a few, unobtainable to most, legal minds can decipher, yet all are unrealistically and so unreasonably, expected to accept, follow, obey or understand.

Surely it is better to establish correct and proper knowledge, management and implementation of practical laws, alongside laws against the abuse or neglect of any human in true basic human need. Ensuring the health, safety, security and well-being of all or any part of, the populations of each country affected by behaviour is important, indeed vital to be seen as established in any Parliament. That they be known and applied by every Parliamentarian then fully disclosed to each and every citizen that they claim high salaries and large expenses from public purse, to represent. Surely that will establish better relations and only reap disgruntlement or opposition from those few loud voices, who prefer to break or ignore, well reasoned established laws or, live in opulent luxury while others suffer because of their tenacious avarice. Laws made to promote honest societies of well-being. Encouraging, realistic and harmless heart. Let’s be honest, humane laws of people are in our hearts, our consciousness. Most of us do not need law makers, as we know to practice no wrong-doing, if not how to do so well, in this corrupted UK society. It only gets complicated by those practicing wrong doings which corrupt human ways. That corrupted behaviour directly or indirectly has too many, widespread, adverse effects. Every adverse effect, naturally affects those of us with intent to understand differences better, within the bounds of not doing wrong. We who, purposely behave in our best, most reasonable, conscious manner. Behaviour most appropriate for bettering community, locality, society, self and importantly, overall well-being is no easy task for any one self. Trust that all others, especially those in positions of responsibility, will do so too, has been repeatedly trashed by peoples, leaders and is shamelessly aided by many in MSM. Causing gradual, global burn-out without any preferable openly widespread, globally accepted as decent, behaviour. In order to survive and help all children and grandchildren not just survive but, thrive well, without need of repetitive failures such as we all face today. We need to, at the very least, be honest about the burn-out, to ourselves, each other and importantly, our children.

We do not need people promoting their wrong doing ideals as though they are practical. When in actual fact, they are in support of avarice, falsehoods or titivation. Take an honest look.

We do need ways proven to contribute to or, create a ‘well’ country, community, locality, planet or society. We truly need practical and appropriate methods of improving every part of the global situation, to which most UK citizens contribute. Belief in one person and faith in one god have proved they’re are not enough. This because there is no mass belief in any of those or the laws they establish as true. Belief’s and faith’s have not improved the global or internal situations by any honest or obvious degree. In fact much belief or faith openly promotes aggression, argument and worse, destruction of entire areas and peoples. That, from those trying to justify and who openly promote avarice. Those too using deadly weapons or other warlike ways, causing malady among most peoples and lands. That while others ‘speak’ of the ‘happiness’ or the ‘peace’ of belief and faith. I’ve seen very little, true and lasting, happiness or peace. I’ve seen a great deal of cultish, localised and/or temporary happiness or peace. I experience my own inner peace and depth of calm due to my own belief and absolute faith in G O D. But…that does not, has not helped make the planet or my chronically-ill body … well.

To me, this proves that we, of man and woman, need mass belief and faith in ourselves, that, we are able to take actions contributing to the repair of the planet and helpful soothing of all in various degrees of pain, on it.

While righteous laws of man or G O D are being changed, or ignored, to benefit or suit only a few, the continuation of masses of lands and people suffering intolerably, is an educated prediction.

Is it right to expect or enable my educated prediction to become everyone’s reality? I think not.

Only when looking at political definition of right and right-wing. That’s built on those who find their happiness hiding behind cruelty and deadly weaponry. Their indifference to any other is shocking. Their apparent, absolute belief that only their belief or faith is legitimate. In that place, you’ll find the origins of dictatorial promotions of faith in their own, obviously cruel, belief in eventual destruction of all who oppose their ideals of absurd ignorance.

In my own belief and faith, there are much better ways that are not cruel, dictatorial or deadly weapon protected. Ways that may well ‘hurt’ but not kill, the cruel, dictatorial and deadly weapon protected. However they’ll certainly soothe pains and repair lands on a massive scale. There are many like myself who’ve noticed better.

I hope there is enough time given, to prove that. As well as, better considerations and actions for assisting to better, healthier living conditions for the defenceless masses. It is much better to purposely work towards healing and so soothing people and lands. It certainly has better probability of air, land and sea repair than destructive avaricious, right or right-wing methodology. Because, eventually, with diligence of better purposes, beliefs and faiths, even those born of, forced or schooled to continue, avarice, cruelty, dictatorial or lawlessness of politically right-wing people and, places they establish, shall have better, more stable, peace and planet.

I believe many people are unable to remember when or even recognise that, they’ve been assimilated or born into evil or, at the very least, evil’s ways of harm and ignorance.

Consequently a great many are casual and ignorant about their own damaging, harmful, deceitful and ignorant ways.

Conversely there are many people now realising they have the ability to recognise, be dis-assimilated and then begin to contribute to harmless, true ways.

It is a common misconception, encouraged by widespread harms of the deceitful, that harmless, true ways are boring. In fact they are incredibly challenging. Given the harmful ways we, alive today, were born into or abandoned and left with, there’s no time to be bored while re-establishing harmless and true for all adults and children. This, without accepting any exclusions, takes a lot of effort of thought and deed. I understand there is resistance, this seems due to, promotion of harmful and/or murderous thoughts and habits, as much as individual neglect of caring and nurturing in kindness. The reluctance to self criticise is shamefully neglectful of self and, whatever impositions self has or is pushing and worse, inflicting on others. The effort to deny self harmful habits and wants of any type, seems too much for those with casually harmful or murderous thoughts, fed and encouraged by casually harmful, murderous thoughts of authorities, some creatives and both their promoters. This done in such manner as though victims deserve all they get for not harbouring enough hate to kill the casually harmful or murderous.

It is the responsibility of self to overcome any harmful or murderous thinking that is established in the mind by whatever means. Should people be unable to do so, then surely it is the responsibility of those in authorities, creative and promotional fields, who have broken the habits of harmful, murderous thinking, to assist the change.

Those with harmful or murderous actions must surely face the penalty, to lose their freedoms, until such time as their own harmful, murderous habits are dealt with permanently. So that they can be free again, having been taught to think independently and differently to the harmful or murderous, in order to fit better into sociable society’s and contribute to better, harmless times and ways.

It is no overnight accomplishment but unless we, as a united race of people, begin in earnest, all will be lost to harmful, murderous thoughts and ways, without exception.

Fear

Some clearly do not love or fear the G O D they ‘claim’ to believe in and worship.

They even claim to love each other and others believing in G O D as brothers and sisters but, show no outward sign of that. Instead fear of different manner of worship encroaching on their own belief is apparent.

In their speed to be ‘whatever’ in their lifetime, they neglect their religious duty or duty of faith. No religious leaders are outwardly apparent in teaching the importance of keeping the 10 rules nor do they seem to have intent to keep and teach all 10 of them by example or by proper lesson. Instead they have different rules for themselves while ‘preaching’ not teaching, the absolute strength of the 10 Commandments. Then, they continue blatantly, instilling fear of themselves rather than the G O D they proclaim is their leader.

They don’t even know G O D well enough to fear breaking the rule about not killing, how can they love, fear, honour, uphold and begin to share understandings of the actual G O D about whom they preach?

They prove otherwise (man wise), by their lack of intent or willingness not to kill, either individually or en mass. Their lack of intent or willingness, not to respect the alien at their gate (though not directly written in the 10 rules it is easily found in them, by those knowing the rules intimately).

Lack of willingness or intent not to commit *adultery. Their lack of intent or willingness not to fill their own or others’ hearts & minds with avarice. Their lack of intent or willingness not to covet their neighbours choices, lifestyle or things. Their lack of intent or willingness not to give false witness against their neighbour.

The audacity with which many world or religious leaders claim high office, especially in religious matters, is not acceptable by any true believers standards nor in any HEAVENLY place.

The true believer feels comfortable loving, getting to know, to understand and honour the G O D and G O D L Y manners and matters they believe in. Usually they’re horrified by any religious establishments and their fear filled false claims. Horrified by their own part, when in ignorance, of how to apply the rules, in places where none are truly made to be upheld or practiced.

Living in fear of one thing only, G O D, can be proven by consistent manner in keeping with the 10 Commands. Proven also by personally building strengths that result in lack of fear of anything or anyone, other than G O D.

The true believer is often caught up in fear of man or woman and the chaos that was established over their predecessors. They may take many years before being able to find the lack of fear of man or woman and, freedom to establish their own intent or unwillingness to break any of the 10 rules. Caught by physical force of, deceitfully intentional, rule breakers. Their ‘no’ ignored, as not meaningful, due often to the whispered way it was expressed. The persistence of the breakers of the ‘10 rules’ has indeed caused those rule breakers to establish doubt about the meaning of the word, ‘no’ among several communities and in several societies. There is much deceitful testing of the physical, not the spirit. This by ignoring the existence of any inner or outer spirit. Perhaps they have no inner spirit which gives experience of the meaning of Spirit. That being the case, they must step away from the elevated podiums they insist upon standing up on and ‘preaching’ from.

Religions own G O D, prophets and guides spoke for rule keeping but religion spins or twists those guidances to accommodate their physical desires/wants to break or ignore the rules. This apparently, in order to spread their waywardness which, belies the Spirit of the belief they claim and, is equal to any other minor or major blasphemy.

The fear of man, or woman, fear with justifiable reason, has been too often used by those intentionally making themselves someone to fear.

Good luck overcoming any fears you have. It took me over 60 years. Much of those 60 years spent struggling to accommodate, due to my own fears, rule breakers of every type. However, once overcome, life becomes … pleasantly, if not free of concerns, different. I asked for help and am still waiting for appropriate help, more than 40 years later. Eventually I overcame fear because physical illnesses caused a type of personal lockdown, those experiencing the pandemic of 2020 will understand, though my lockdown was not due to contagious disease but physical limitations made worse by assault at my paid work, resulting in injury, adding to pre-existing illnesses. My fear was of grim consequences, I too often experienced those when going about my lawful business. Trying hard not to accommodate rule breakers of every type. I habitually pre-empted grim consequences, due to prior and consistent experiences of them. It’s been a traumatic life, my own actual and, witnessing that threatened or experienced by others. Others also being dramatically abused and denied their own freedom of will, which opposed freedom to break man’s laws and the 10 rules of G O D. Still others being starved, dying of thirst, murdered, killed in genocidal manner. For me, when seeing/witnessing such, it hits my mind and heart in shocking manner whether or not, first hand. It is within the power of those wealthy and in position of authority, to follow the 10 rules but, they choose to break and encourage breaking of them. They also example the breaking of man’s own made up rules. That manner creates unnecessary fears and prevents freedoms that were given freely and intended for all people.

There are, I’ve found, several persons, of loving, interesting and like manner, nature or Spirit. Life is certainly worthwhile.

*adultery is not only sex with women who’re not the wife, men who’re not the husband. Bear in mind that, due to all the imposed, via fear of man, behaviours, one doesn’t always first marry the true soul-mate first time, so exceptions aren’t granted but, very few. That dependent on whether or not adultery is habit or pursuance of true soul mate, which truly should be done prior to marriage.

*Adultery is also done by the impositions of morally bankrupt, lawless leaders; invading, interfering, forcing, messing, playing, prostituting country’s not always their own. That while their own isn’t cared for as morally upstanding and/or, god-believing leaders must surely care. Those claiming ‘no belief’ have generally, too often, broken worldly laws and therefore, in general, have no believable authority.

Chaos needs to be universally accepted as the global current, in order to organise acceptable ways out of it. That probably won’t be as easy as many ‘want’. It is true, in my opinion made strong by my observations that, we all ‘need’ to build determination, fortitude, strengths, and better understandings of any part we play in causing or maintaining chaos. This in order, to accommodate recognition of our own personal duty in life as it is among others very much alive, and so expose our ability or inability to display better organisation of the ways forward and out of chaos. Not backwards, sideways or any other ways but forwards onto whatever is not causing chaos for others and or our selves.

I suggest all ‘wants’ be ‘parked’ in order for all ‘needs’ to be met. At the very least until all ‘needs’ are honestly recognised and catered better for, for inclusion into better options of better freedoms to choose from.

Tolerance of ‘wants’ ‘needs’ to take stock of the costly price of the intolerant ‘wants’ of those who have no desire to know what chaos, destruction, ‘needs’ and harm, their own ‘wants’ or indeed, unjustifiable to the sane mind, ‘demands’ directly and indirectly, cause others.

It is apparent, to me, that many justify their ‘wants’ by declaring that they are not responsible for the birth and life choices of others. Might I suggest that, each one of us more honestly and seriously consider that all ‘others’ are not responsible, nor necessarily desiring our own birth and life choices? Yet here we all are, in our societies and communities. Has one’s own choice adversely reduced anothers’ options and forced upon them, no true free and palatable options to choose from? This while flaunting many self advantages that were handed on a silver platter via ignorance and generally unjustifiable, harmful desires and thoughtless wants.

All very well saying love is the answer, when love of situations or activities that, albeit often unwittingly, cause chaos, are destroying this planet and all on it, without exception, some, more eventually destroyed than others.

Complacency about this is positively and ignorantly encouraged. It is currently being done by those intolerant of opposing observations and opinions.

There are still isolated beauty spots, abundant in things for a few to enjoy and things that assist a few in their own life’s and advantaged lifestyles. Those places maintained doggedly, regardless of the costs, much of it shifted to the sacrifices of and choices for, any fair and justified lifestyle of ‘others’. Many of those places are captured by profiteers and their fellows. They now exist only for a few to enjoy without thought of those involuntarily made to sacrifice their own life or the life of loved ones. Often in same dogged arrogance, many are refused the free options of the profiteers and those they favour. Most of those profiteering and their favoured, are protected by hateful or worse, murderous thoughts, backed by threat of weaponry use, proven by design, manufacture and use of weapons, at even more cost to life. How is that acceptable? How is that right? Control of those places and weapons is passed from one generation to another or, from one kindred ‘type’ of person to another. How is that not gross ignorance and denial of harmful intent? How did those attitudes even develop beyond passing, then dismissed as wrong, thoughts?

The desire to carry on, as has been done before, simply because it has been done before, is not conducive to true progress.

The way of ignorance is harmful. The encouragement of ignorance is evil. The dissipation of ignorance depends on realisation of it and desire to overcome it and yes, overwhelm it with better understandings of a fuller nature. Importantly, with diligence and honesty about universally acceptable aspects of minds. With positive, purposeful encouragement and development of truer, thoughtful, purposeful, caring natures. A capacity the brain of man and woman has but, little uses to benefit this planet and all on it. The situation we are in tends to prove my points. Is it possible to do so without stirring emotions? I think not but, to then use emotions to advantage the doers of wrongs? Hmmm…to me, that is certainly wrong added to wrong and has seemed to become a habit or worse a demand of and among the wrong doing advantaged, in all classes and communities of all our societies.

Of course there’s unpalatable content for many, in the truth and works involved in applying all that is universally considered rightly justifiable. At present we have justifiable as defined by a few, who themselves are not behaving in a manner that they could justify to most who are, let’s be honest, not in as privileged, or as advantaged positions. Positive actions and, encouragement of actions in the direction of dissipating the harm caused by ignorance, gives birth to better understandings and then contributes to positive promotions of them. A little emotional or physical discomfort along the way is nothing compared to the horrendous harms and involuntary sacrifices already endured and imposed, actually forced unjustly, upon far too many persons and places and, other inhabitants abroad on this planet.

While there is still natural beauty and treasures in this world, man ‘wants’ but doesn’t ‘need’ to practice or invite avarice. He doesn’t ‘need’ to covet, invade or destroy anyone or any thing. Man doesn’t ‘need’ then to ignore the destruction he causes by his actions. Which directly and indirectly harms natural beauty elsewhere and kind people in his own midst and elsewhere. Making those beauties and kind people a rare or unusual sight and encounter.

The sorrow I feel is that there seems to be acceptance, indeed much global leadership encouraging others to ignore and, are giving endorsement as well, by example of ignoring that which leading man or woman plans to destroy and to cause destruction of. As much as ignoring what has already been destroyed. As long as it isn’t in their immediate vicinity or, is for their own luxuriating or profit. To deny others the freedom of their reasonable options, for the sake of that, is without doubt in my mind, obscene.

Man too often uses insistence on forgiveness. whether or not he truly applies, believes in or, fully understands true forgiveness himself. Often planting insistence that in order to apply forgiveness, others must apply belief in his belief or ideal god or gods, if not truly believing or fully knowing about that himself. Always accommodating that harm is acceptable to that man because of his own forgiveness insistence. He then doesn’t purposely practice behaviour that doesn’t need forgiveness, as his norm. That the “Judgements of God” or “plan of god” are known or shall be revealed…later…or “Karma” will deal with it seems to excuse the lack of proper purposeful considerations and actions towards not ‘needing’ forgiveness from any. These doctrines have consistently with persistence, excused many harmful actions by persons in much need of attitude change and some are unforgivable in their repetition of harmful actions or intention to harm. There is also unspoken (perhaps only hinted at or whispered) neglect of personal duty to selves, personal duty and responsibility to others. Which has, by my observations, unjustifiably self-elevated some men and women into situations they and their fellows alone, believe to be justified. Yet, they display scant or no proof, or respect of the justification necessary to understood, agree and then respect their status, from those affected ‘others’.

This has become rife among work and business places, the same neglect and widespread ignorance of jobs. Too many job titles belie the actual works done under such titles. Many works have become harmful in unacceptable manner. Other works undervalued even though they’re essentially vital for life to be ‘easier’ and more convenient for everyone. Leaders seem to question the discontentment, often belittling it and the persons who feel the effects of, in my opinion, their own truly unjustifiable behaviour and actions. Instead of dealing properly and appropriately with it, they allow it to divide entire communities or societies and then profit from it, causing even more destruction, discontentment and harm.

Those volunteering their knowledge to assist in the true healing and non chaotic or divisive organisation procedures necessary now, are mercilessly harassed, mocked, persecuted and too often ruined. Then, born of ignored and unbroken habitual ‘want’, harmful actions are further denied or ignored, in order to continue to pursue and add to, the profitable chaos which is a result of ignorance and mindless, harmful desires for thoughtless profiteering. Profiteering not just of monetary gain but of ‘preferred’ idealistic, ways of life that already have blatantly disadvantaged and worse, made sacrifices of the actual lives, of others. This accommodated by establishments and their preferred, costly, established, exclusive to them, education systems.

I love that you will, possibly, consider my words applicable food for your thoughts and thoughts for those you personally birthed. I believe that, as long as we think in the earnest belief we can improve life, perhaps not only ours, we will at least gain better understandings that improve our own attitudes and the frankly necessary freedoms in life, for others. Perhaps gaining less tolerance of the intolerable attitudes of closed and, ignorantly established as justified, minds.

It is positive and possible though not necessarily easy, to at least make a beginning, to understand the consequences, there are many, both good and, I’m sad to say, horrendous, of our own life and lifestyles, on others. Many have found no justifiable reason to tolerate our ignorant ‘wants’ that, no doubt overshadow and contribute to the dire and not so dire ‘needs’ of others.

Unacceptably destructive ways are something I cannot endorse, yet, am surely guilty of indirectly, if not directly contributing to, just by buying clothing or food that I don’t know the true source of but have trusted sellers to do nothing immoral or unethical. It has been proven to be, misplaced trust. This, while living my own physically ‘disabled’ life, having my own ‘needs’ both physical and of a mental health nature. I have few freedoms or options available to me, that my fellow citizens, with able bodies and minds have…in this England. With today’s communication outlets, flaunting it’s ill-gotten wealth and harmful expectations about it’s own, costly to others, lifestyle. Rife with complacent attitudes towards arrogant assumptions, harms, involuntary sacrifices and, often it seems to me, deliberate misleading or misunderstandings, at point of and thereafter from, birth. Then, added to by compliant, some blatant, lies to selves and from others as well as those in leading positions that it beggars belief in me and, on a daily basis shocks if not, surprises me. I hope for changes in leadership, either in their own attitudes and behaviours or, from people who can grasp the concepts of changes for betterment of our ruined reputations and thoughtless behaviours, because I alone have no power to change my options. Options previously established though limited, imposed on me by leaders and their supporters. All allowing wrongful profiteering to ruin responsible provision of product and services. I do write emails to relevant authorities in moments my disabilities don’t prevent it.

Revelations of truths may not always be ‘wanted’ but they are ‘needed’ in order to progress in truthful and best manner. I constantly attempt to discern between want and need.

Maybe you could too. When asking your child what they ‘want’ as a gift, to wear or for food to eat, remember to disclose the consequences of their object of desire. Which if you don’t know, needs to be disclosed at point of purchase or discovered. Do our desires incur harm or unjustifiable sacrifices of freedoms on and options of others? Perhaps change one word in the question from ‘want’ to ‘need’. For example, “what do you need for your birthday?” Then as the providing adult find sustainable options for their needs before asking, “what of these options, would you like to eat?” It is a thing I believe we can begin to make widespread, by practicing it our selves. It doesn’t happen overnight but it really should to prevent any more harm. When we begin asking ourselves what we and others truly need, things begin to change for better understandings, in our selves and among those who love us, if not immediate betterment of harsh worldly situations. All dependent on the sense of urgency to change any imposed situation brought about by our own truly unjustifiable ideals and wants. As long as we don’t want to keep ourselves in ignorant enjoyment and profit by imposing unnecessary suffering on others, we are an improvement on when we didn’t care or notice. I observe and understand there are many habitually harmful behaviours to recognise and then purposefully stop. That, I believe will be a huge contribution to the beginning of the organisation of ways out of the chaotic and often deadly situations, prevalent on this Earth.

Some things to consider there. Cheerio, with love and best wishes on your quest for harming less by betterment of self and those you might birth.

Whether that be the birth of more truth, widely justifiable and practicable ideas or, birthing good hearted persons, honest and purposefully considerate of other persons, already living near or far, with practicable ideas of their own.

Good luck!

R.A.S. May 28th 2020

I write as though I am an ‘elder sister’ to all. My older Sisters will understand my approach and my attitude if not my belief.

Atheists and the secular, might be interested in this particular content, far too many believers are being unpleasantly complacent about The Ten Commandments found in religious books, they appear to be happy with the leaders in disobedience of The Ten Commandments. Beyond discourteous.

I’ve had many of my own ‘church’ experiences in several different branches. This due to a ‘Spiritual’ experience of such magnitude I could not nor did I want to, ignore it. I believed and still do, that the experience led to communication to and with G O D (GREAT OMNIPRESENCE DIRECTORSHIP). I am still in communications every 24 hours. I understand many in the churches I visited, had no idea about such experiences nor any desire to hear what was communicated to me. They only had ‘set’ ideals that they wanted me to adhere to. Many did not sit well me. All the while I was personally witnessing their ‘takes’ about God. I had no need to ‘take’ anything from their churches or their mind-sets. I had a few Earthly ‘friends’, some on a telepathic wavelength, others in person, who were as surprised and delighted by the overwhelming Spiritual experience as myself. I still cherish their friendship.

This particular writing is one of the many results of what I call, “Mostly Silent Conversations” I make notes of them all, some long, others short. In pen, pencil and on gadgets I have been blessed with. You might well ask how I can tell the difference between Earthly telepathy and Communications with G O D. It is actually obvious to me as I have the ability to recognise superiority during telepathic experiences, not only superiority but also, differences between Earthly and not Earthly wavelengths…And, I have the ability to know the difference between and among those utilising wavelengths telepathically. Such skills arrived shortly after I requested the ability ‘test the spirits’. This, we believers are permitted to do. I wasn’t sure how I could and many personalities belied their own spirits. Some without realising they were doing so.

I had the massive, somewhat overwhelming ‘Spiritual’ experience, the Bible books say that it is a calling many experience. That some, like myself, are chosen. Prior to the overwhelming experience, I was able to enjoy many Earthly telepathic experiences. Discovering several different wavelengths from several Earthly beings, humans and other. The ‘I Spy With My Little Eye’ game had extra meaning to me. Of course I was considered ‘different’. Looking back at how people treat those who are considered ‘different’, I love my immediate family even more now than I did then. As for those choosing to ridicule, dismiss and mock…water off a ducks back now, if not during my childhood.

It’s wrong that certain religions, their followers and members are not focussing on nor are they applying diligently, The Ten Commandments. Nor influentially teaching their followers and members to purposefully put them in main focus, practises and teachings. There is apparent, obvious complacency and denial due to the ‘forgiveness’ clause repeated throughout scriptures. I suggest this change with immediate effect. Then focus gently, without threat or menace, on how to live adhering to those Commandments in today’s society. Teach as though sharing the wonderful discovery of ten simple rules. The Commandments are definitively from G O D. Most coming upon them have dismissed them as ‘bendable’ like they dismiss the rules and laws of man. That is a grave error.

By all means use examples of those who didn’t and still don’t abide by one or all of them. The consequences of their failure to ensure adherence to the rules are deadly for them, unless of course, they as publicly admit their wrongs and begin making any recompense required, to victims of their crimes. Alongside daily adherence from now on. This would prevent more massively unacceptable amounts of personal tragedies, as well as the death of their own eternal lives. The disobedient are abundant and obvious. Use them as examples of what not to do. What happens to even one person when the rules are ignored, one person, one family, it could be theirs. Mustn’t kill directly or indirectly for sure. That’s just one of The Ten Commandment that’s aggressively, arrogantly ignored.

Those believing that they are allowed to kill others without the same life rules or beliefs are wrong. Those who believe they shall not be as adversely judged as they have judged, are wrong.

There are many who shall not be forgiven should they choose to continue with complacency about or disobedience of The Ten Commandments.

It’s unwise to be proceeding with any other doctorate or reason to profit, by using the naïveté of followers, members or non-believers.

It is urgent to begin renewals of and better understandings about those long reasoned and very serious Commandments.

It is a given that deaths have already been caused by leading figures both secular and religious. Figures who repetitively contribute or encourage blind contribution to adverse climate changes and deadly personal situations. Their mismanagement, their irresponsible behaviour, the complacent ineptitude of global ministers and managers, at the expense of too many lives and too many ways of life. Enforcing punishing situations upon those ill equipped and ill taught to cope with them.

There must now be purposeful and determined ministers and managers put in place who must change the dire and grim situations they or their predecessors established.

Should any question my observations, may I suggest you spend time, at least, to read the Ten Commandments. They are easily found in the Bible books of Deuteronomy and Exodus, don’t get distracted, for now, by other words and messages in the Bible books. The Ten Commandments (not the film) can also be easily found when typing them into any internet search bar.

I think you’ll also find that no Leading church member is ensuring all it’s followers and members are understanding and applying those ten rules. Many do not even know what books they’re found in. Some are profiting from their ministries and trading in books about books in the Bible, even on the days of rest and worship! That rather than insist on knowing and applying The Ten Commandments. Instead, they race ahead for monies. How can those new to belief in G O D, trust such a place or such people, when they contradict what is written and definitively declared as, The Rules?

Each command should, from this moment onward, be taken very much more seriously.

It is a given that The Commander of those Commandments can be and, no doubt in my mind, will be, extremely forgiving of those who were lied to, led to ignorance or naïveté of the Commands or, made ‘spellbound’, or were under fear of menacing, persuasive and devious persons.

Each religious establishment and the establishments they choose to teach the truth, truly must begin focussing on the Ten Commandments, during every session, before any worship is clean.

It is not worthy worship-song-prayer should they choose otherwise.

Why wonder that there’s no miraculous Divine Intervention for the world until, all those commandments are adhered to by all professing, to ‘love’ or be a ‘member’ of or ‘follow’ G O D or any Earthly figure that claims to know about, to love, to understand G O D. Don’t wonder instead, question the practitioners in all formal places of worship. Questioning is not judging. Do not let them intimidate you with their self appointed grandeur.

It is true that each Truly Holy Being is able to love persons on Earth. Those persons shall be made evident. Not evident by monied wealth or weaponry. Those persons have riches that are not fully acknowledged, recognised or indeed wanted by many on Earth.

So those expecting more of G O D than was foretold, stop your bleating about why hasn’t G O D intervened or mended the broken, their souls are where they should be, saved and many are sleeping. Some have taken their places in the judgement queue, others have been heard and still others are already judged.

Instead, intervene and mend your selves and your communities. Stop looking at your ‘neighbours’ faults and look instead to better ways and deeds of your own self, to be done now. Look at your own failings first. I believe you’ll discover more that can be improved. I certainly did and still do. Then, gather the flocks and get on with the healing of lands, lives, minds and selves. Do so with better knowledge and application of The Ten Commandments. Observe and be witness to all but, don’t judge yourself more or less worthy than any other nor judge any other less or more worthy than you.

As for the children, ensure they not only memorise the words of those commandments but also know how to keep to the commands for life and are able to shun those ignoring the ten simple commands. They are for those believing in G O D, men, woman and children. All genders must follow those rules or, stop asking the commander of them for acceptance, forgiveness and/or help.

I’ve witnessed more hearty followers of those rules among non-believers than among believers. That is surely the fault of the believers. It is also shaming those claiming to be believers.

There shall be no help in any lifetime until it is apparent that persons of religion and faith are adhering daily to those Ten Commandments. That shall be apparent by lack of cries to G O D for help with what man has done wrong.

Most especially persons proclaiming to have Faith and a right to any leadership or Earthly wealth need learn, know, practice and positively promote, all the time, all ten of the Commandments.

Get that understood you Earthly persons and you self appointed leaders, preachers and teachers.

You who ‘make’ saints for others to admire. You who call to arms. You who profess love of others. How shall you present your own selves to the Commander whose court cannot be avoided.

No excuses and few reasonings are accepted in the court of The Commander (G O D). The witnesses are sound and have been sounding. Witnesses are always heard by the Commander. The Commander reads each person by their core truth. Not one person can hide core truth from The Commander or the court officials chosen by and so, of The Commander.

To teach properly; leaders, teachers and preachers must ensure the lessons are firstly, self learnt. Then taught, rather than left to chance after sharing them by talking or writing them in current teacher manner for any other. Those who learn them shall show, by their adherence, that they understand them fully.

Judgement is the reserve of The Commander. The Commander happens to be the most experienced, inspirational, inventive and mature member of G O D(GREAT OMNIPRESENCE DIRECTORSHIP).

It is the duty of each religious member then each believer and follower to insist of firstly themselves, full understanding and adherence to each and every one of the Commandments fully. There are absolutely no exceptions.

R.A.S. 2020

Another time, I did ask, ‘… but what of dogs? Dogs are wonderful Earthly companions for male or female, adult, child or infant…..’ Of course I meant, depending on their origins and their nurturing, G O D knew/knows all my meanings … I asked ‘why have dogs all been demonised, excluded from Heaven? Adam named them and their label eventually was translated to English symbols that, when reversed, spell your Title…dog-god, in lower casings. You are the best Spirit friend any person or being could have, in my opinion. Just as dogs are great companions to persons…yes?’

Two things here.

First, in my belief, I wanted to be a better friend to G O D but not enough was know about how to be a friend of G O D, so I had to find out for myself. That is what I did and as I wrote before, I discovered a lot more about the Origins of GOD. Because I had desire, interest and great passion to do so. Not one thing was barred from my questioning nor from my sights. My own Heavenly parent is the best friend of GOD called, Melchizedek.

Second, I love dogs, a lot. I haven’t always been their best friend any more than I’ve been a ‘best’ friend to G O D during my Earth time…but felt dogs deserve better than being left out of heaven. The answer to my first question was, “Of dogs…they become something else in Heaven which is in HEAVENLY SPIRIT, each will be recognised by those who loved them……………,……………,THERE ARE NO DOGS IN HEAVEN…………THERE ARE PERSONALITIES INSTEAD!” Well, I thought aloud, that last part was left out of biblical books. Mind, biblical books had to be condensed so…here we are.

Thing is, no one wants dog mess there. Not one personality could agree to have personalities that makes a stinky mess in Heaven. Nope, none could be found to clean it and, there was no desire in any to take the time to incinerate such mess of dogs….fires are not necessary there nor are incinerators …. so …. dogs become the Spirit personality they display signs of here on the Earth. They are gifted the ability and the placements, to learn more about life in Heaven before entering Heaven, they are of course, connected to Heaven. When you see this it will be like the dangling earrings of a woman. The mesh golden-rainbow globes are attached to heaven and to Earth. In each globe there is link to whomsoever desires it there, that is why the mesh, each strand in the mesh is a protective link to another among the many, originally formed by The Originator of Great Omnipresent Directives (do you see, TO GOD?) and, those mesh globes are then attached to that or those personalities of Heaven and any personality that needs them on Earth. For as long as Earth exists. All are initially Quantified by a Qualified Lady of the Heavens, not of, the court of the Heavens but, via it…all are judged there…all! The mesh disappears as soon as the Spirit protected by, and learning from, each moment within it, no longer needs such protective armour/shielding/encasement. They become qualified to be in the Heavenly movements and are free to choose from and be in, whatever is there.

That is all about that for now.

R.A.S 2020

I’m absolutely sure about my experiences of Heavenly beings, energies and sightings. I am acutely aware that others are not as sure about this area of my experience, limited knowledge and broad, deep thoughts, if narrow pathway.

I do not expect such surety of others.

I do request others accept my belief as mine to have and to share as and when I see fit or appropriate, as I do others and, I choose to share this now and here. In the UK, where I am, it is known as Good Friday of Easter Celebrations in April of 2020. Your choice is, whether or not you read on.

Arguments about my experience I do not take as, unless you’ve experienced the same or similar there is no argument against personal experiences, though some claim there is. With me about this, there is no argument.

It’s a bit like others relating the tales of a trip to other places than those they reside in. The difference is that I have no photographs or video clips.

In my experience, the Heavens and those I meet/met there, use different, harmless frequency’s to those commonly seen or known about on Earth. All of the Heavenly energies that I experienced and met (still do experience and meet with), are Socialist at and to the core-heart. Nothing trickles down, instead it flows throughout. There is recognition and respect of true experience. There’s no doubt in my mind, superior beings to humans exist. Let’s face it, tried and tested is far greater to experience when discovering for self, ways to things that others already know. So Heaven in my experience, is perfected flowing socialism with perfect maps and guidance for those who don’t read or have access to, maps. It is worth more than any amount of money, experiences or goods bought by money. Directions, when asked for are freely given from all in Heaven too, money can’t buy that. By the way, age and experiences gained during ageing have more understandings and respects, different definitions, dimensions and meanings in Heaven than here on Earth. Obvious to me.

I took a leap of faith and discovered that at my life’s end here, is an actual leap of energy, from my body/spirit to a bigger existence on a different frequency. That was nice to see.

The only things not permitted and instantly recognised in the heavens I believe in, are all things evil and all things of evil. Definitely never permitted entry to or existence in any Heaven.

There are rules in Heaven, of course there are. All Heaven’s rules can be changed in due course and in respect of protocol, on condition they do not include evil of any types or dimensions, there is no ‘kind’ in evil.

In the Heaven that I recognised instantly, it is mostly; well mannered, if not always truly polite, excitement, discoveries, fun, fascinations, interests, new things and beings and yes, there, it is permitted to be cheeky as long as cheek is not evil. The ‘cheeky’ I experienced there, is/was interesting and/or funny.

There are infinite possibilities there, of great interest to me. I have experienced sightings that implicate that I have my own world, engulfed by, linked to, relating with, the Heavenly. It is all abiding, enfolding, the sizes and differences between beings are found in intimate, distant, massive, small and spacious. I feel as though I interrupted my time there to be born here. With good intent and reason. That was a journey I can now recall if not reveal…yet.

What I loved was that at no point did I ‘lose’ any part of my individual personality. There is intimate familiarity but it is respectful, not intrusive. All evil simply burnt and/or washed away. That I found to be … bloody marvellous.

Such experiences I questioned as true at first, of course I did.

Then, all sorts of Earthly and other happenings, relating to my experiences began.

Nothing already in my mind prepared me for the difference between my experiences of Heaven and, what certain persons dictated I should expect. Nothing prepared me for the fact that I was considered by G O D to be a Court Official of The Heavens. I mean c’mon…me? Of course I questioned it. Not for long though because given an ‘access all areas Spirit’ pass is very revealing, both of Earthly and Heavenly matters. My memory has been switched on in a Spirit manner alongside the recognition of the frequency that reveals much more than Heavenly connections. I questioned the link up because I have no scientific knowledge enabling me to prove my experiences. I was told that surely the experience is the proof. It is for me and I am now content about it.

Here, on Earth, it was touch and go, on and off in both Earthly and Heavenly matters due to Earthly handicap complexities but when it’s on, the memories are very clear. The Spirit memory is like the Spirit experience, dimensional, I became linked with ALL there, it was a lot to take in quite frankly. It needed to be, I had asked quite a few complex, not only Biblical or Earthly, questions.

There are many different sets of frequencies as yet un-measured on Earth. Seriously blew my mind. The fact that those frequencies are not measured yet here on Earth, is mind boggling considering the advances in science and technology. People seem more intent on questioning sanity and personal experiences, rather than, discovering frequencies. That, to me, is not very scientific. Leads away from discoveries rather than towards them.

Peoples expectations of any G O D and of any persons with interest or experience of G O D, are far from realistic I discovered.

Also I questioned the biblical gift of ‘free will’ that keeps being quoted to me but, only offer limited option to choose from that, limits my freedom of will. Also a persons free will is blatantly abused here on Earth, by those with money or monied advantages and powers. Many appear to desire to control the will of others by fair means or foul. That is actually a big wrong.

Any questions? I suggest you direct them to the Heavenly’s in due order, within the set protocols written about in various guides to G O D Spirit and Heaven books.

I did. I followed biblical instructions and protocols. I asked my own questions and, goodness me, what eventual unquestionable revelations!

Should you choose to do so, do as the gifted free will individuals that you are and, don’t assume the answer, it’s not in those books, I looked. Instead I suggest if you’ve interest, wait for answers and they will arrive.

Happenstance that Earthly challenges fill in the time whilst waiting for answers.

Everyone, during the Covid-19 pandemic’s crucial, important lockdowns, now has more isolated time, similar to that I had for over 20 years but most persons are without the physical handicaps I am burdened with. Many have different ones. Others feel they have none.

As you do so, carry on well, with life here too. I did my best with that but handicaps prevented my progress and I was further hindered by lack of lawful duty of care provision. Too many pre-set authoritative rules that exclude, prevent support rather than, include and give support, most rules were/are set by those without such handicaps as I have.

When utilising your own brains’ ability to receive and send signals to the Heavens by heart or by spirit depending on your own belief and way of living, both heart and spirit, when directed by brain, are doors to ‘other frequencies’ and do not result in permanent insanity, with the right support and guidance there actually is no insanity or there is better guidance away from, out of that.

When asking questions directly to source and, self-waiting for Spirit answers, which tend to arrive in many forms, sometimes Earthly. With time along the Spirit frequencies, there can be no more error in the answers often guessed at with uneducated and inexperienced desires/wants/expectations by folks dissatisfied with Earthly answers and circumstances. Often expecting miraculous intervention to cure all that is certainly not of G O D’s making. I say this, clean up your own messes. In order to do that you have to recognise your contribution to messes and accept responsibility. Be social in discussions, as we all are about global crises. It’s best not to deny your part in any wrong because wrongs cannot be corrected while they are denied.

Try to remember that nothing gives certainty like personal experiences.

After over 20 years of attentive, intense, extensive, personal experiences, coupled with observant serious study and my own practises, in this area, I believe I understand my chosen subject well.

My chosen subject, among other subjects of interest, is that of G O D (GREAT OMNIPRESENT DIRECTOR) and the Heavens. The experiences I have and have had are not found in theological or philosophical teachings to date. But, they sprouted and stem from them.

Do not trouble G O D or any of/from Heaven on their day off, that is rude, stupid and results in more than one wrong.

Funnily enough, after following written and heard, rules of and from one G O D, I have greater understandings, if not yet the far greater extensive knowledge, about Earth, people and societies that I’d have liked had I not been handicapped to the point of disability. My time without such disabling handicaps was and will be again, in my understanding, when I return home, to Heaven. Meanwhile I’m enjoying and experiencing, as much as possible, here on Earth.

Socialism, sociability, with great respect to the experienced elders, be they old in age or young in years, is the truest path to World peace and better climate repair actions. When a child knows more than adults in any knowledge/fact finding area, that child must be heard and as respected as any heard elder in any field….

On Earth, among people globally, if not politically, we are experiencing a reawakening of neighbourliness, community spirit and sociable practices the like of which can set us up for much better futures for all. Whether or not there is belief in G O D or Heaven.

….”On Earth as it is in Heaven”. Yes.

Happy Easter and beyond.

That is all about that for now.

R.A.S.2020

Fear

They join in with and nod heads at, the cruel and indifferent, for fear that such cruelty and that type of indifference touches them.

‘What of me?’ They cry. ‘Were I to speak out, would they ‘will’ that I too, suffer and then die?’

Sick fuckers!

Whereas I, as instructed from the beginnings, I fear only G O D, whose indifference alone, is more suffering than those humans inflict. That indifference towards the cruel and indifferent is eternal, feels like it becomes cruel to each it touches, each who fear or notice it. In fact it is an eternal lesson to be learned by all. In order to show them the errors they perform. In order too, for HEAVEN to enjoy the peace it proffers to all but one.

I feel reassurance, my endurance fortified by each humans’ condemning blow. Each indifferent humans’ show, condemns those of cruel and of indifference. They are so stupefied that they believe themselves and their leaders blessed.

I suppose, were one looking only for Earthly fame and time that must be, fully satisfying for them. Were it not so would they and their cruel ‘will’ surely be…different?

I would no doubt notice many changes as would others enduring…suffering cruelties and indifferences of cruel humans…hypnotised, tempted and/or touched by evil.

Clicks fingers in hope that the hypnotised become awake.

R.A.S. 2020