A ‘type’ of Man-Mummy’ll do it-daddy’ll fix it-mummy should’ve done it-daddy should’ve fixed it. They live in deeply resentful mode. Their mummy’s & daddy’s never ‘do/did’ enough, in their mind’s eyes – minds & eyes full of hateful falsehoods. So much so that not only do they not satisfactorily fulfil their own filial or paternal-parenting should’ve’s but they persecute all women and ‘hope’ all men will ‘understand’ their resentments and ‘excuse’ their crimes. And you know too many men do. Do they relate blindly to the should’ve’s expected of their own parents? They honestly expect more from women (aunties, mothers, sisters, others) than from men. Some women the same.
Sickening and so violent in mind and deed, they’ve become sick, permanently riding on roundabouts & in bumper cars. While they and their like-minded women excuse & forgive. Many, in the name of brother Jesus.
Having been freed of all of my own actual experiences and interactions of cruel hateful females & males. Those violators not only of my body, but also of my mind, many violating both at the same time. Over and over again, one after the other and that, in same mindset as others, with violent deeds in action or in minds, vast pockets of gangs, until their body & mind gang rules establish themselves in business and worse, in global governments.
All my life they did not stop! They feigned innocence, rights they did not have. None have the ‘right’ to violate any other, neither in mind nor body, NONE!
Nonetheless, freed now, I find I don’t despise or hate any of those who certainly are guilty of violating, mocking, falsely accusing me, and the judgements carried out on the spot! Using my body and mind for their sick, ignorant pleasures, denying my friendship. I cried, died a type of death that was sleep. Seeing only every actuality, that led to all actualities, sleepwalking through my life. But with a very strong and kind love, in, around, and beside me that I hoped existed in around and beside other humans. Instead the proclaimers of faith have distorted their Gods, their saviours’ love, to mean much different than the love they actually present. I should know, one saviour happens to be my brother. And GOD my parents.
GOD, who had to touch me, to wake me from my sleep, had to intervene, not only for myself but for others. Had to actually remind me of my own source. Perhaps not as man and his woman has imagined any daughter of GOD to be but by the image and SPIRIT of GOD’S own self. It was an enormous inclusion. Stood me still. Awakened me to my true self, to be me once again. Enveloping my mind so definitively, I could not deny the educational, embracing, inclusive and oh so very informative and intimate touch, that rescued me completely in entirety in GOD LOVE, a Spirit, a frequency of such intense power it cuts all ties to man’s collective spirit and witches spells. Informing me I now had the ‘right’ to judge all who had judged me. Food for my thoughts, mind, heart and source of eternal life now united.
GOD was, and justifiably so, angry that so many people had decided a judgement on me. That judgement was and still is, absolutely not theirs but the absolute authority and domain, of GOD. Sometimes that anger burns, rages inside me. Fires that don’t dismiss all wrongs, my own and those of others. But produces such a befitting judgement that, by myself I could not deliver. Those are like gems dazzling their light inwards and outwards from my crown and my words. Incredibly, generous and just. My soulmate and I reunited in such a way as I cannot fault or deny too.
All from that one touch, many years ago, flooding me at first, admittedly seemed more than any mind could in fact handle, never mind a ‘disabled’ and violated mind such as mine. But, being my mind, united with my heart, I noted it was strong loving frequency’s and zip files all mixed up together, that I and My GOD are sorting. That with the kind and loving understanding of a parental, brotherly & sisterly nature. My Earth family scattered, not all blood related, but certainly kind Spirit related, kind and understanding and scattered. When not embroiled by their own circumstances and situations, they too demonstrate familial kindness and love as only they can express well.
Memories and information continue to settle in me, I open those zip files and remember to close them now, after peeking in, while sorting through. Thankful for the time which, truth be told, I used to do subconsciously while earning money to pay for rent & food etc, before being injured at work. Injured . again but that injury added so much pain to the existing mental and physical medical conditions, I could no longer work, which irritated and shocked me beyond words. Now, twenty plus years later and only because of that beautiful, intense touch, a reconnection with my source, the collective Spirit of all creatures, Spirit of trees with me long ago, all powerful and loving, and befriending me after GOD and M, Spirit of bear. That beautiful wonder. Apparently the other creatures’ Spirit too, but I am still processing that touch and what human’s are doing to each other, how to cope with the handicapping, diagnosed medical conditions, and all else happening in actual fact, on this much loved Earth. Which in deeds written, belongs to witches and dogs. All humans are their tenants, so I don’t fancy most of their luck at all. Influenced as they are by Satan’s evil energy’s. He alone makes it alright for them to kill, betray in falsities, subjugate and violate each other.
That my own, narrow path is clear now, though not easy, it has moments that are so intensely beautiful and intimate, I actually feel loved. Not alone but by myself. The love of GOD though, that is not only, my own, definitively proven to me. My faith rewarded.
It is free, in equal portion, with absolutely no favour, to and for all living beings, including the dissatisfied men & their disgruntled, subjugated women. It is so strong, so honest and actually real, of both feminine and masculine nature that I am unable to deny it.~M.R.A.S.2021
Ruth’s Place 