This altruist finds altruism the only state of being, true to myself, that is honourable and just.
Today, during global extreme, grim circumstances, chancers, thieves and dishonest, unlawful, money addicted hoarders, have gained positions of extreme influence. Loudly promoting the untrue & the dishonourable as though they are true and honourable. To the gullible, the uneducated in their schools, it seems acceptable.. Some of those, offering such absurdities, keep demonstrating that not only are they armed with deadly weapons, many of which cause mass deaths and much destruction. They are also not shy of promoting, selling and/or using them.
While the altruist in me agrees they have a right to exist, it does not agree they may continue as they deem fit to benefit only themselves and that, by any means, including the barbaric and deadliest.
People have not been educated to tackle the complicated, the deadly and the intricate of their, all our, todays. Instead we have all been programmed, during school hours, to think fast, to keep up with this or that subject. Subjects pre-decided and so often irrelevant but perhaps brain stretching in directions impersonal to all pupils/students. While their parents try to keep up with whatever they were born into, schooled to do, and grow up into adults forced, to be adept at coping with, whatever. Which often conflicts with what they were and their children are, taught in school. In fact, too often actually, they were not taught to deal with what they were born into, not to dwell on what was imposed unlawfully upon them afterwards. ‘But we taught them to think, to use their brains’ I hear established education cry. Hmm, ‘only about those definitive subjects in definitive manner, for limiting exams, not to develop their own thoughts about their own identities. Nor how to solve their own problems. Too many of which are added to in classrooms and playgrounds’, I silently reply. Queues for justice already in place.
Due to the, seemingly overwhelming, complexities of the global population, that form of programming has not served ‘education’s’ purpose. The purpose to educate, to develop the minds. Not only to think for themselves but to help them each, with who they are and what they surely must, cope with, not to dwell on find out how to avoid injustices that they most certainly shall witness if not experience. Both as children and, as adults.
Had established education systems been successful, in educating people, there would not be the global, internal and personal crises we are living through. Those circumstances unsolved and unacceptable. Yet not seen nor in fact solved, by any qualified by the establishment education systems. Consistently added to though.
School has its purpose. To teach to read and write in the languages born into. Maths that enable children and young adults to ‘cope’ with the system as is. Apart from that, all children are quite capable of knowing who and what they are and what line of idealism or truth they’d like to explore more deeply. Aren’t they …?
The established education system has only served one purpose. That is, for those who thought fast enough and indifferently enough, to serve themselves for ‘Programmed’ purpose and maybe their children, within such uneducated schooling & often with monetary favours for those they ‘want’ with them.
Sure I hear cries of, ‘but we wouldn’t know the discoveries, the formulas or methods for this or that’. I reply silently with questions, ‘would we have needed those had we been allowed to follow our own pathways? Would we have arrived at them differently, as and when we needed them, if ever?’
Education aside ….
We surely must, as the individuals that we all are, individually accept that the massive and diverse populations do exist. Is it their deliberate choice? Or were they, like us, born into them as directed by the ancestors of us all…
… That during this era of fast, advantaged, lazy, weaponised influencers. Musn’t we take responsibility for our part in harming others? How can we? Most everything available to buy causes damage to ‘others’ elsewhere. Why shouldn’t we care about that? We know manufacturers and sellers should stop making and selling such but are happy to profit from them. Leaving us with the damage ‘blame’ for buying them. And we know they are relying on our ignorance about their marketing which is slow to improve in honesty about the damage done by such things as poison others.
I give no thanks to the ‘influencers’. Loudly promoting that to ‘want’ such things as are damaging others, is natural and OK. Arguments such as, ‘wouldn’t the harmed be behaving in like manner’. My silent answer, ‘yes because they too would have been ‘programmed’ to suit the ‘influencers’.
Part of acceptance includes looking into which ‘wants’ of ours are harmful to others? Whether altruist or not, to harm another, is against any moral or ethical code and so, unlawful in this country…justice anyone?
As humane humans shouldn’t we be preventing any act of or for harm? That must be our united goal surely? When we know just exactly what is our responsibility, we stop relying on others to do that thing for us. However, manufacturers with co-operation of sellers, have not taken their globally harmless and so sustainable, responsibilities seriously….justice anyone?
The law makers have tied themselves up in knots. Making queues for ‘justice’ too long to serve the purpose of true justice. The liberal spread of the idea that established laws, law makers and justice upholders, serve all purposes of justice, has contributed to the mayhem that is Britain. The queues for that justice lengthen.
Money seems to be the answer for many. Who then find that the money rewards for taking injustices ‘on the chin’ are never enough and do not be for the solving of their’s or any others, quest for justice.
It’s like an Elastoplast to fix a broken bone. Not happening. It’s merely a distraction from the greater problems which upon leaving courts, with cheques in hand, still exist.
I began by discussing which ‘wants’ of my own are harmful. Here I let you into more of my ‘personal self’, more than one being resides in my one being. Those only I can hear/see are in and around my mind and my home. Some asexual, some sexual(not forced on me but acknowledged by me) and some angelic and even yet others. Yes. All ensuring that I did not, do not, have to venture outside my person or door to find, what I consider, extra intelligent argument. I am extremely fortunate in the respect that they do not cause me any anxiety. But are very friendly towards me and quite a lot of my visitors, their comments I usually keep to myself when in company and laugh out loud, agree, or argue the toss, when we are alone… Which is all good because going out I also have to manage and prepare my ailing body. Which was always and still is physically disabled & chronically ill…a lot of that also invisible to others, so denied as true until medics found it was and is very ‘true’. But who’s got time to stand still and talk about that? Injustices adding up. We/I now spend time not only looking to the injustices of my own but those huge amounts, some similar, of others. Justice queues not accommodating those…but justice is necessary.
Only after arriving at a place in my own mind which is not in shock from the traumas caused to myself have I found the confidence to declare my harmless self out loud and in writing. Not that the ‘influencers’ care. I do care. I tried for decades, to ignore my asexual, altruistic, multi me. Tried to ‘fit in’ to the ‘others’ alive and ‘like-schooled’ in English education establishments of mammoth and mass turnout failures. All of whom, themselves, in denial or blindness, blinkered, however ignoring their own ‘troubles’ as well as mine. Stiff upper English lip. More like pole up the arse ineptitude. No intention to cope with the truth of our grim realities, so keep contributing to them by pretence that they do not harm us or others at all. The first lie that we do not have a pole stuck up our arse, all classes of English education mind-set do. No matter perceived as, upper, middle or lower class. Class is the pole.
I was given the keys and tenancy agreement to a ‘Council’ flat, in 1988, which was allegedly my safe and secure, home for life. Turned out not, but was supposed to be. I took it as a sort of justice for being physically beaten and cruelly tormented by way too many people. Yes. True justice anyone?
Decades later, and much more abuse, including more than one physical assault without true justice, because my mind is different and invisible. Who’s mind isn’t invisible? Come on! I have finally released to all and any, the I of more than one being exists in myself and that my identity of asexual altruism is actually harmless, allowed and very true to and of the real me.. Injustices prevailing, failed education understood.
Only now awakening from traumatic shocks alone, and trying to grasp that I’m still chronically ill=severely disabled. Not miraculously healed…yet. Believe me when I am, I’m off. To catch up on all I missed, work included…never too old. To me the ‘disabled’ and ‘chronically ill’ labels hide the truth of the efforts necessary in managing the list of symptoms of all such. To convenience the not wanting to honestly understand the personal management skills involved in managing all the actual and too often acutely painful, symptoms. That on top of being alive in this world in this Country, educated(hah) with english pole up, what class now? The confusion in the word class is enough to set any child wondering why they’d want such a pole up them. Never mind a ‘disabled’ child managing theirs by themselves because it’s embarrassing some ‘class’ or other. Justice anyone? Sugar in your tea?
All that aside….ahem…more tea?
Finding that I am still part of the population of British people, and that I do still have an altruistic and asexual identity. It survived all those years from pre-school, through lots of injustices, to now. The difference between me then and now is I am a mature adult surviver of many many wrongs. I will happily declare that altruism and asexuality, is also the truth of me and always has been. People seem and seemed quick and keen, to put a different identity on me and so, not being of cruel or violent nature, I accepted whatever they decided. Usually to be honest, I was stuck in shock from abuses. I suspect my honest declarations will be a shock to those who thought they knew me and my disabilities well enough already.
They did not know my identity, nor that I have been in a total state of shock, from pre-school age, because of casual, extreme and persistent, mental cruelty or physical violence. All and each of which were, shockers to me, if no other, during those many decades since pre-school. From the first incidence, then and thereafter which…apparently make me wrong because…I accommodated. I get so many flashbacks at such inconvenient times.
But I cope. I know I wasn’t in the wrong. But was trying to ‘fit in as expected by abusers and bullies’, that, without ability to present my asexual, altruistic self and be taken seriously. No doubt not helped by the mental health ‘differences’ I have. Here a brief reminder of the many ‘other’ beings that always accompany me, but are unseen by other humans.
So here I am, disabled by PTSD, Fibromyalgia plus other physical and mental health ills. Still out of any ‘Justice’ courts but expected to be always in defence of myself? Surely not, there are so many other far reaching injustices.
My own original thoughts, that as fits into the ‘label’ altruism, have rescued me. I fit in that ‘label’ without the need for the presumptuous simplifications of others, same as with asexual. Yay! Labels I am able to fit very well and comfortably into. Oh dear, labels, they alone simplify .. me.
I can accept that all does exist and has a right to do so. But, not as mischievously or cruelly goading(mental cruelty-bullying), nor as unlawful, dishonest and violent people expect.
I have been, in this place of safety, reunited with my own self, the asexual altruist. I do not have to accommodate those choosing lawlessness, mental cruelty, sex or violence to threaten my existing as an altruistic asexual being actually. No! In Britain there are laws against such. To find ‘justice’? Ahh yes, the big queues. Oh and the different law languages of all the diverse law’s long winded wording. One needs experts to decipher and…justify. So to get that help….Oh boy!
That aside … raises eyebrow.
At least now, allegedly, I can recover properly from all shocks, given no more interruptions from those advantaging the knotted laws. Oh look unlawful care givers and agencies and … then, hey me…an unlawful build is being proposed next door to my flat. Which will no doubt threaten my safety, my security, the brick walls assembled to ensure my and my pre-existing neighbours, security. Plus my personal, lawful bounds and worse, my mental health recovery from all pre-existing, combined with and adversely affecting, pre-existing physical illness symptoms, which are adversely affected by any pre-existing or new, anxieties and the build will no doubt adversely effect my overall well being. Which, by law I am entitled to my own knowledge of my own ‘well being’ and … takes a breath … to feel safe in my own home…so to being safe under Council rules…hmm, Council ignoring ‘equality’ laws and other laws to favour overcrowding an already overcrowded and under serviced area…to the English justice system…oh wait the justice queues…
Disabilities, of any nature whether they are many in one person or one in many a person, cannot be ‘put aside’ to convenience that devised by those who are able of body.
Every, conveniently confused by law writing, wrong doing that any in any Council does, whether or not pressured by the numbers it must by law accommodate, will add to them by ‘accepting’ the manners of unlawfulness and by not being purposely lawful. They then add to the overcrowded areas in existence and, ‘feel/reason’ they are free to overcrowd those areas more, as long as it is not on their doorsteps. Because those being unlawfully bullied under such impositions, would have to go to ‘law’ … justice where are you? Oh? Wait in a long queue and how much the fee?!
Apparent, surely not only to me, law makers have made easy, the absurd and unlawful ideals and expectations of those earning or otherwise profiting from such overcrowding. Very few can afford to ‘chase’ justice, myself included, neither by money nor emotional strength.
I am supposed not only to accept the injustice of this ‘propsed’ build, but to do so without ‘normal’ or ‘abnormal’, reaction nor notice that the notice about said build next door, was not lawful. Seeking justice? Well … you see the problem?
While the altruist in me recognises the need for new build homes, it also recognises my own mental health needs, care needs etc, and the problems arising that add to that, due to this very rushed plan of local Council, bound by laws which they themselves are ignoring but insist others adhere to. While being ‘polite’ about the behaviour of those in Council, not adhering to laws. Be not thou upset or else, the one sided(Council’s) conversation is terminated…politely.
That while a local parliamentary representative holds not only a seat as an MP in Parliament but also, a publicly proclaimed, position of responsibility and importance there. Also presents qualifications in the acts of justice while not accommodating me in her surgery, (before COVID), my particular disabilities not recognised by her staff but recognised formally, (aha..I have the law on my side) … she’s bound by law to accommodate me, has indeed helped so many able bodied or minded, who admire her helpful ‘qualities’. Would that I could reach them sooner. I was put off before even reaching her. Justice? Those darn queues.
I have to say that recently I did reach her. By email(a lot of those) She is otherwise busy but has offered, limited by COVID, help. Personally I am thrilled to have been given an alternative to being in her surgery.
To do this or that which the able bodied do, with difficulty or ease, without proper and lawfully(eyebrow raised) due considerations about the demands of self management of any pain or other disability. Those forces on a body, any human or other body. Is not possible without lawful help and support, which many too often take for granted as being readily available for the disabled…ahem, that injustices justice thing again. Oh and . in Britain usually, animals get more considerations about pain and disability. Most animals and humans in pain simply want it to stop. They don’t want their lives to stop, just the pain. Most are unified about that. We humans are not marvellous magicians once we are given a label for that pain…nope. Animals did not make this world how it is, man did. Well excuse me, 1) I am a woman(thankfully) and 2) no person alive, including me, made this world how it is. We do contribute to it getting worse for so many .. Justice anyone? It has to be up to the individual’s responsible for the continuous manufacture and sale of harmful things(goods) to claim that responsibility.
Another problem I have, is my limited ability to communicate myself as is, in person to person situations. Fibromyalgia aline creates speech problems, combine that with anxiety and…get the picture? Add the multi beings in me, asexuality and too many questions from those not understanding the workings of me, well if only they weren’t ignoring the very important parts to me, of my being..
The questions like, ‘yeah we know you’re in pain but…you must .. that you’re unable is also ignored….pauses long or brief… ‘do you understand you must first this or that?’ Often spoken loudly or as though to a toddler and worse, angrily as though I should be able to pretend for their sake and limited understandings that I can do their able bodied ways…not even fully wheelchair accessible …yet. . Which usually means pretending I am not being disabled, I am unable to do that…or the old old, ‘only coping with pain’ they’ve had toothache, headache, knee ache, back ache, period pains etc. Mmm me too all those and more. But also the need to ignore(impossible) a shed load of other symptom inflaming situations to try and cope with. . Blah blah blah …. Justice anyone?
Of course I understand the MP did not make the pre-existing laws, nor all those made new or contradictory and so, more complex, by the Parliamentary oppositions. Oh dear here we go, the addition of needless extra extra complications, none nor all combined, properly understood in full. Try it, ask a Parliamentarian to give you full explanation of one of the laws in debate there. Ask also why there is even a need to debate what wrong is? We all know what wrong is, we also know many of us do wrong.
So, as is, Parliament cannot prepare an entire population for injustices they either concur with or oppose .. not to dwell on .. new ones. But I do believe she(the MP) found an interest, used her own observational skills and belief in her ability to add to or change things as were during her childhood. By studying and using laws…eventually…during her lifetime. Which was accommodated up to her qualifications in the field of law. She has not claimed a disability publicly. So in my opinion was advantaged. I am aware she fights, through the ‘justice system’ (ahem) for disability rights.
I must be like a complete shock to her and ‘the’ system. Well news flash, my disabilities, mental and physical, are a shock to my system on a daily basis even though I accept I have them, they still, on daily basis, shock my body .. the painfully unpredictable-it’s complicated, not possibly simplified quickly. The fact that all are combined in one body which to date has not been accommodated, is also a shock. I do have no choice but to ‘cope’ with them all. At the very least, after all these years, I expected recognition of the fact that my body and mind are by comparison and definition, to date considered by authorities as ill. They are complicated and shock of shocks, yes, all are combined in one…me. Alas that honest recognition by those with several qualifications and unreasonable demands on me, has not yet been done. How would they accept it(I have to make the effort to manage and/or cope or not, by myself, all of them combined and individually, every day) if they do not recognise that they must make ‘efforts’ to understand it in order to accommodate it? Seems a touch hypocritical to me. That it is expected and demanded that I must make efforts, but, they decline to do so even though bound by laws. Justice queues…sound familiar?
Yeah but, all disabilities and unlawfulness aside….eyebrow raised…
Altruism is not only complex it is intricate. I was not formally educated to ‘think’ my own thoughts. I already thought those, especially when by myself and not being bullied.
It was attempted during the short education years I endured, to distract me from my own thoughts and questions about the world as was then. Ignored was my place in this world.
I always was an altruist. However, comes the time I must also accept all the rest of my own being. I have been forced to recognise and accept those in order to quietly as possible(yep a 1950’s thing) manage and cope with them altruistically. Which all should have been accommodated by educators as ‘how to develop’ the best of me I possibly can with educators help and family support, during school years. Neither was delivered. Nothing to do about that then or now.
So, that time is now. Aged bloody 65 not 5. I don’t have my whole life ahead of me any more. No one can guess what life I have left. Funnily enough, getting justice for myself will also get justice for many others. Bonus to my own self’s being, happily comfortable if puzzled, with truly being, labelled an altruistic asexual.
Hmm, getting justice in England….hahahahahaha
Laughing not laughing. But the irony. Law, justice, England.
Here’s hoping there are, now in place, law abiding citizens with respect of their own, paid for, responsibility and the dedication to help and support the law which says they must accommodate my actual needs. Which complexly, do not fit into their simplified boxes. Many claim they must, indeed take wage and/or salary to do so. Instead they have have reasoned, amongst themselves, that I and my needs can be simplified…justice? Education…programming. Onwards to the rest of my day, managing my illnesses. My all of me. Yes, I agree with many that I have uncommon strength and determination but I also have a lot else plus those Physical and mental health ill symptoms which by the way, are incurable…all…combined…to date. Yes.
I do understand that there are many much worse off than me. I also understand that there are many much better off than me.
TTFN.
Ruth’s Place 