All rights reserved by Ruth A Sutton(R.A.S.)2019
Wing-Walking has more than one meaning for me. The obvious in today’s society means, to be on the wings of a plane as it flies through the air. Another, is to walk or, wheelchair along, with unseen wings. Yet another is to be so in touch with one’s soul that during meditations, one soars among the walking in spirit. My understandings and experiences conclude such.
I’ve wanted to wing-walk for ages. Hampered by my inability to walk anywhere without mishap and intense pains. Arthritis, Costochondritis, Fibromyalgia and serious Spine degeneration cause intense and extremely challenging, for myself and medics, to manage. Physical pains. Hampered also by my inability to stand without mishap. The pain and involuntary movements I endure daily have not helped my endeavours to do anything. Challenges galore. I usually, eventually, overcome several obstacles and mishaps. I choose to use them as experiences I’ve had or I am having and as, many lessons learned. I cannot miraculously heal my body but my mind manages all, most days rather well, in my opinion and understanding.
My choice to take ‘mind journies’ is inhibited by the ocassional descent into depression that once recognised, is swiftly booted with the help of available medics, medicines, support agencies, contacts, family members and memories as well as learned practises. All might be explained at some point in my posts. When I’m not writing other, more of my interest, things. I also love socialising, on Twitter. I do not mistake social acquaintances with the concept of friendship. My true friends know who they are. It is probably a challenge for those who want to befriend me. A challenge hindered by my contentment with the friends I have already.
My mind can, and does take me anywhere, given focus time.
Time, I have much of that to myself. I feel fortunate to have such time. It is a ‘perk’ of being severely disabled. At first I was angry, dazed and confused. Eventually I found it suits my personality. It doesn’t suit those who wish different for me. There are many such people in our UK and global societies. It isolates which, for a creative thinker who writes and used to paint or draw, is helpful.
There are no mishaps when my mind does stuff my body cannot. It became necessary when physical inability gave need to recline or repose, on average, 21-22 hours out of each 24 hours. Yup. Not the idea of most as ideal. It wouldn’t be my choice. Imagine such confinement. Seemingly impossible but actually with the proper help and support, it is doable for a cheerful soul like myself. Of course I’m not always cheerful about this necessity caused by illness and injury but I honestly am. Until officials and authorities of society but in and ask repeated questions. That .. Drives .. Me .. Nuts. Makes me anxious too. Very anxious. A depressing fact of life until officials and authorities stop questioning me repeatedly and begin understanding my reality, which by law, they are obliged to do. I’ve only taken the route of one law suit. I won but oh dear. The prize was not my idea of justice so I thought outside that box instead and understand that I must endure their repeated questions until such time as they are made understanding. Maybe they have personal problems too inhibiting to stop needing the repeats, maybe a form of dementia.
Given a hyperactive mind, one of the challenges I set myself, in my determination for some quality experiences that excite or, interest me, is to write and share, my ‘mind’ journies.
I have what some consider to be an infuriatingly cheerful, Soul. It is me, cheerful. I feel secure about other aspects of my personality, my identity, too.
I write several, of the ‘mind’, journey’s as short story’s, in this outlet. I also write articles resulting from much personal, direct learning and thought. I have an ability to do both. I have educated myself and am just beginning to enjoy that at 64 years old. I feel very young but know I am not. My initial formal education, failed to acknowledge and cater for the conditions I am afflicted with and handicapped by. They were not diagnosed in my formative years so all people I met understood I was different, supported me in their own ways or, bullied, mercilessly mocked or, pretended I did not have afflictions. Too many people expected me to ignore afflictions that were and are not possible to ignore. I did have exasperating times it’s true. To say my youth, my whole life was and is challenging is an understatement. It is a challenge I choose to face as cheerfully as I am. Circumstances allowing.
I’m omitting, for now, all my mind focus methods in favour of story flow. Mind focus methods can be found in abundance on the internet.
I hope you feel inclined to enjoy and/or learn from my writings. You can see my finished writing about a Wing Walk in the post headed, ‘Introduction’ it is published with/after that ‘Introduction’
All Rights reserved by Ruth A Sutton(R.A.S) 2019